Tuesday, May 17, 2011

things awry...

May 16, 2011
Haha. so today was an interesting day. Just another day in the life of a peace corps. This is an organization clearly run by a government. Haha. so I’m moving to bobonong. I am going to visit on Wednesday. I have no idea how I’m going to get there. Where I am supposed to be sleeping on Wednesday night. I can’t find my counterpart. And there is no housing available yet. Apparently, they were a last minute set up for a volunteer. So quick that they didn’t have time to even send a counterpart down for the workshop. I also find out it was a last minute placement because 2 other placements fell through. SWEET. They sound ready for me. Lol. so of course, I get no help from the PC staff…or people that I will be working with because of the strike cuz no one has any idea about what is going on. So time to take matters into my own hands. I call a few volunteers that are in bobonong already. It’s not like it’s their job to figure out all this for me…but strangely they are the only ones that have nearly any idea about what is going on. And this is what we have figured out ON OUR OWN:

1)  I will be taking a bus from kanye to gabs to catch a bus to selibe phikwe. The earliest bus from kanye to gabs is at 6 AM. Next step…how to get to the kanye bus stop at 6 AM? No idea…hopefully my host dad can drive me..

2) I will stay with a few volunteers on Wednesday night in selibe phikwe. Then Thurs head out to Bobonong.

3) My counterpart’s name is Ma….lol. we have no idea. I guess we’ll just have to hunt for her when I get there…

4) One of the volunteers is helping with the looking for housing. She is going to take a look at a few this week…so I guess that I means I might be going house hunting. Sweet. I might be able to CHOOSE my house.

BAH…thanks, PC for all the help! Ugh. Lol. Oh well. At the end of the day…it will be done. Lol. I no longer take time to worry about things working out anymore. Things are the way they are, no use in fighting. And no use in getting riled up about something I have no control over. Just a bit annoyed and maybe slightly delirious from the large amount of boredom I have been attempting to withstand for the past few weeks. (hm…I wonder if I’m going to get in trouble with PC about writing this….lol…oh well. I’ll just wait for them to tell me to take it down if they don’t like it…)

ANYWAYS…big news within the country…
ALL SCHOOLS THROUGHOUT BOTSWANA HAVE BEEN CANCELLED INDEFINITELY. Yes…they have cut off school here in Botswana. There is a strike happening with all the civil servants. They are asking for a 16% raise due to inflation, where the government is only offering a 5% raise. No side is budging. It’s been happening for the past month. At first, it seemed more of just taking some time off. But now it’s really starting to get heated. When I was talking about the kids being incredibly civil, I still think they have done an amazing job, being that they JUST broke today and JUST started destroying/ransacking schools…A MONTH LATER. In America, that would have happened on the 3rd day if not the 1st day. But instead of educating these kids who clearly want to learn since they have been patiently been sitting in classrooms without teachers for the past month, they close all the schools indefinitely and tear gas the rowdy children. My sister has no idea when she’s going back to school. She might not go back to school until January. SERIOUSLY…JANUARY?! You just cancel school until JANUARY?! Dude…it’s fricking MAY…no school til JANUARY?! Wow. I had never even fathomed such a thing ever happening.  Eh…but I guess that’s just how this country works? I honestly have no idea if this is a shock to people are not. People are just shrugging and sighing, but not really making a big fuss about it…accepting the fact of the matter. I’m not sure if they are resolved about the situation or if I am just misunderstanding their level of emotions…maybe they just think school will be reinstated sooner than people are saying. I have no idea. I’m not sure anyone really has any idea. But anyways, I’m glad that this country is a peaceful country. Their strikes are definitely not violent by any means. And unsupervised kids are unsupervised kids anywhere. You can’t expect kids to behave any differently anywhere else.

We will see how this strike will affect everything that is happening in this country. Right now, PC volunteers that are working is schools…well, we have no idea what is going to happen to them.  Are they going to stay? Are they going to wait it out? Are they going to be moved? We have NO IDEA. Now with us…working in clinics…if the nurses and the people who run the clinic are on strike, will we have work to do at the clinic? I mean…apparently we do a lot of work at the schools too…so no clinics or schools? Now what? Am I supposed to hang out at the church? With NGOs? Dude, I have no idea. Haha. phrase of the week. I HAVE NO IDEA. Lol. let’s just twiddle our thumbs for a bit and see….AWESOME.  (shoot…am I too political here? Am I taking a side? Cuz I’m not allowed to…if I am…I may get in trouble for this part too…lol)

May 17, 2011
Nevermind. they found my counterpart. or at least 1 of them (apparently I have 3). they have set up a lodge for me to stay in for wednesday night.so looks like i'll be going into bobonong on wednesday. staying at a lodge. then meeting people on thursday. sigh...see how fast things change?! bahumbug. it's tiring trying to keep track of everything. wish me luck!

Monday, May 16, 2011

where am i going for the next 2 years?!

May 14, 2011
Sorry it’s been awhile. Not much has happened in the past couple of weeks. We’ve just been trying to get through training and things have basically stabilized in terms of our routines. So we basically are just running through our routines. So nothing new to report about daily life here.

BUT

Today was the deciding day. Today was the day that determined the next two years of our lives. It’s a pretty crazy interesting moment to completely understand how significant a moment can be and be IN that moment at the same time. Today we found out our sites. J

I WILL BE IN…

BOBONONG! J apparently it’s clinic work. Oh well. That’s ok. I’ll figure something out. It’s on the east side of Botswana. I think it’s around the same size of Kanye, maybe a little smaller. As you can see…I know very little about it. Lol. they speak Setswana, so yay to that. They do have good grocery stores there, so hopefully I won’t have an issue getting cheese. There is no one all that close to me from the Bots 10 group L. but I will be around a lot of the Bots 9 group. So looks like/hopefully I will be making a few more friends J. I’m pretty sure I will have running water and electricity. It was difficult to get excited or sad about my site, because I know so little about it. I guess I can give more of an assessment on Wednesday when I go to visit my site. I’ll be there for a few days to figure out what my job will be and what I will need to buy/bring.
So it’s real. I have a site. I will be in Bobonong for the next 2 years. BTW…it’s called Bob City apparently. Lol. Bob City. Awesome.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Shadowing in the desert

April 26, 2011
So not much has happened this week. We’ve kind of just been going through the motions. We have a set schedule that we follow, and we just roll through them each day. It’s funny though, sometimes I’ll just stand on the side of the road and think to myself…wow, I’m in Botswana right now. WTF. It’s crazy that it hasn’t hit us that we’re here, even though we’ve been living here in Botswana.

Though on Friday, we finally got our shadowing assignments. I’m heading to Middlepits with another trainee. We’re excited. It’s gonna take us about 5 to 6 hours to get there by bus. We’re finally getting out of Kayne! And it’s about time. Others are going other places. A few of my friends are heading to Maun, others are going to Francistown. We are just scattering about all of Botswana. We’ve all been mad jonesin to get outta here and to get some space from each other. There are some people that I feel like I could live without here already, and we’re starting to really figure out who we get along with and who we are ok with being without. No offense to anyone, everyone just has their preferences with people they like to be friends with. We type A personalities can’t be friends with everyone. In fact, no one is going to be friends with everyone. We aren’t all going to like everyone we meet. And this is no exception. We don’t hate. We just don’t prefer. Lol. Sorry, I can’t lie, and I’m going to be honest that not everyone is going to like everyone. And if you do, then you’re just fake, or have no idea who you are or what you like. And trust me, you’ll know what you like if you’re confined in the same room with the same 38 people every day for 8 hours a day for 3 weeks and everyone is trying to get their two cents in. A little harsh? Sorry…I just say it how it is. Can you sense the bitterness? Lol. Ya…I need to get some space. Excited to take a break. J

This week has been a day by day kinda week. The monkeys are always amusing. I’m thinking about trying to capture a monkey to keep him as a pet. Maybe I can pull on his tail, lol. Then I was thinking about getting a pet rooster also. That way I can have my family with me! J haha…I know I know I know, SO ASIAN. But monkeys and roosters are EVERYWHERE here. I can’t help but think about it! Lol.

Last night, I had to go hunting for someone, cuz my sister’s cousin had run off. So we went out searching for her at night. It was a clear night. And OMG, it was AMAZING. Go lefifi. It’s dark! But…the stars are fricking AMAZING. I remember staring at the stars in Yosemite, and I couldn’t stop staring at them. They were so beautiful. But dude, that was in a national park! Do you understand how awesome it is to be able to step outside of your house and you can see the milky way?! I’ve NEVER been able to experience that. It’s just something awesome all in itself. Even though we were walking around “looking” for someone (we couldn’t really see), I couldn’t take my eyes off the sky. I hadn’t noticed the stars because it’s been mostly cloudy since we’ve gotten here to Kayne (and OMG…I am seriously over this rain…mud…puddles…). But last night was crystal clear, and I felt like I could see every star in the sky that we were meant to see, and it was right in my front yard. Haha…I bet you people who live out on farms think that what I’m saying is funny. And I’m sure it is. I just grew up in a city, went to school in a city…I had never seen in like that in a LIVING environment (as opposed to a camping environment). It made me really feel like I was connected to the universe again, and not just stuck in our own little human technological world.

Tonight, I need to pack. I leave for Gaborone at 530AM. Then take a 6 hours bus to Tsabong. Our volunteer is going to pick us up at Tsabong and then head to Middlepits with us, though we’re not quite sure how we’re gonna get from Tsabong to Middlepits yet. But I guess, I’ll find out tomorrow. Right now, the rain is pounding on the tin roof. I have my music up as loud as it can go, and I can still barely hear it. I’m just trying to move things around on my hard drive, yay! It’s working! But I gotta pack. Then gotta go bath. Tonight I told my host father, ke batla go tlapa. Which means I want to bath. And he understood! Yay! Improvement! I will catch up with you later!

Also, if you want to send something, you can send educational packages for a flat rate as long as it is under 20 lbs. ;)

May 1, 2011
Just got back from shadowing in Middlepits. It’s a village on the South African border in the Kalahari Desert. Like seriously…ON THE BORDER. At the volunteer I was staying with, she is a house away from the border. So this was the journey.

April 27, 2011
We got picked up on Wednesday morning at 530AM at our houses. Was driven to Gabs to catch a 8 AM bus to Tsabong. Another trainee and I slept for a lot of the way. On the way down to Tsabong, we met up with a volunteer in Werda which was along the way to Tsabong. This was a brief meeting, being that he was dropping off a mixing bowl and midsentence the bus almost took off without me, and I had to jump back onto a moving bus as it is driving away. Then we had a 4 year old girl stand in the aisle…and persistently, unblinkingly stare at us for about 20 minutes. There were no seats left on the bus. The mother apparently figured her daughter would be fine just standing in the aisle by herself staring at some “white” people (I put parentheses, cuz I’m including myself in that assessment). After her awkwardly staring at us, I wasn’t quite sure as to what else we were supposed to do, so I asked her if she wanted to sit on my lap. She jumped right on. 10 minutes later, she’s passed out in my lap. In America, this would be absurd, and I would be incredibly uncomfortable about offering my lap as a seat to a child in fear of child molestation accusations. But here, I guess it’s no big deal, and in fact almost expected for someone to just have a random child sit on their lap on a bus ride. They are much more trusting and much less fearful than Americans. Either that, or we have way more creeps in America. 1 hour later, I was finally able to move her to an opened seat next to me (and frantically checked that I was not peed on…thankful not). Yay! We make it Tsabong at 3 PM. We are greeted by our volunteer. She’s cool. J we wait around til 430, then jump in the back of an ambulance (which btw…is just a covered pickup truck with a foam mattress in the middle) with 5 other people, and ride for about another hour along the South African border. We finally made it to Middlepits! We’re in the middle of the desert. There’s 900 people in this village. Where the heck am i?! We make chili. It was yummy. We hang out. We chat. We have a few glasses of wine. We go to bed at 9 PM.

April 28, 2011
Thursday. We get up at 7 AM. We are out the door at 715AM. We make it to a 720AM meeting. We meet the staff at the Middlepits clinic. We get a tour of the clinic. We see where the maternity ward is. There is a woman that had a baby the night previous. They don’t do first births at this clinic, they are sent to the Tsabong hospital in case there are any complications. Though if it is any birth after the first one and they didn’t have complications, they will do the other births here at the clinic. The midwives are the ones that deliver the babies. We check out the medicine store room. Way less medicine than you would find at a pharmacy in the states. We go home to get some breakfast. Then we get picked up to go to Kgare. To get to Kgare, we jump in the back of the ambulance, and this time, we spend an hour riding on an unpaved road, littered with dirt and rocks, going at 120 km/hour. We haul ASS out there. On top of it, we pick up 5 hitchers, so we are jammed packed into the back of this ambulance. We are basically popcorn. It felt like we were on a wooden rollercoaster like Colossus for an hour straight. He would go down hills, and our stomachs would be in our throats. This is the first time I think I have almost gotten car sick…I spent most of the ride staring at my knees, just trying to focus on the nearest “non-moving” object. 

We reach there…we are in the middle of the desert and sand dunes. We hike around the sand dunes. These things are awesome. It’s just mounds of red dirt everywhere. We just walk around the dunes. It’s sand dunes. Sheep. House. Sand dune. Cow. Sand dune. Corn cricket. Dung beetle. Sand dune. House. Goat. So on so forth. Just sand dunes. And what’s funny about these sand dunes…are there are trees just growing out of the sand. Which I’m so confused about. They look like oak trees…clearly they are not…but I didn’t know trees other than palm trees could grow out of sand. I didn’t know anything taller than me could grow out of sand. I was confused. Correct me if I’m clearly just being dumb. Anyways…pictures of the sand dunes will be going up on facebook…so keep your eyes open for them. We walk around for about an hour and half, just wandering around sand dunes and such. We get back to the health post.

Oh…and the reason we were able to hitch a ride there was because one of the midwives from the Middlepits post was out there to weigh and monitor babies. And the way they weigh these babies…you know the old weights they had at the supermarket where they have a hook attached to it? And you hang your produce on it to use the weight to pull down on the hook? Ya…well, you basically wrap a baby in a pouch and hang the baby on the weight. Of course the babies don’t like it…they’re screaming and crying, and the weight is just swinging back and forth from the flailing baby. Lol. It’s ok…eventually they just estimate or the baby calms down. We take a nap in the back of the ambulance for an hour and half as we wait for the midwife to finish his rounds.

Oh another thing about how the health care system works here. So there are hospitals, health clinics, and health posts. Hospitals are located in the cities. Health clinics normally have a doctor and a bunch of nurses and midwives working there. Then a health post is normally for much more remote areas and they are run by one or two midwives. So if something urgent needs to be done, they are normally taken to the hospital. If a check up or a headache or meds are needed, then they go to the nearest health clinic. If you’re super remote, and you are just doing monitoring, you go to the health post.

Finally, we are off again.

Once again….120 km/hour down the unpaved rocky road. This time we pick up 3 hitchers along the way. There were 3 of us (3 girls) and 3 of them (3 guys). It was like an 8th grade dance…guys on one side and girls on another side…just in the back of a pickup truck. Lol. This time…no car sickness, so I got to enjoy the ride way more. This time I was laughing. WEEEEEEEEEE….boing boing boing. Lol. Never knew how good paved road really works. Haha.

We grab lunch. Finished up our chilli from last night. Went back to the clinic. This time, really showed us more, like where the doctor works. We watched a nurse prepare medical kits, which apparently is sterilized in a pressure cooker. Interesting…never knew they had multiple purposes other than cooking! We went to the post office. They have internet there! Haha. that is the only place in Middlepits that has internet. We walk around the village, check out the tuck shop (a tuck shop is a side shack/tiny building that just sells random stuff, like air time, random veggies, soda), walk past the bakery that apparently sells terrible breads, and make it back to our volunteer’s house. Wow…it’s 430 PM already. That is another day in the life of a PC volunteer...apparently.

We get back to her place…we all need to take a bath. We are seriously matted with a layer of dirt from road we were driving on. So, we take a bucket bath. And I mean a REAL bucket bath in a bucket. I’m beginning to realize how tiny I really am. When I can scrunch up into a little ball in a bath bucket and still fit, and still be able to bath, it makes me feel like a baby. I do the same thing I have been doing, except in a bath tub, I am in a bath bucket. We bath in the volunteer’s bedroom, and mop up all splash that occurred during the process. Haha…sweet, whatever, I’m clean. I’m beginning to just take things in stride. If this is what is needed to be done, then so be it! As long as I feel like the job is done, then it’s a success. J haha.

Anyways, omg, we make PIZZA. We love pizza! J well, we clean first, cuz clearly we need pots, pans, and plates to cook and eat with. We make the dough. Then the tomato sauce. We have an onion, broccoli pizza. We had some leftover broccoli, so we stir fried that up. We devoured that in 1 minute. And the pizza was perfect. Perfect gooeyness of cheese. Omg, you have no idea how much we take for granted at home. I have never been so happy with pizza. We watched some really strange and unnerving movie called Hard Candy with Ellen Page. I’m not gonna get into it, but I’ll just say…I’m surprised she got nominated for Juno and not this movie…OMG she was soooooooooooo creepy and scary in the movie. Lol. We were tired by then…and there we go…I pass out in my mummy bag. I love my mummy bag. J

April 29, 2011
FRIDAY.
We wake up at around 8AM. We make French toast with honey. Yummers. We head out to the junior secondary school. Our volunteer teaches out there. But unfortunately there was a strike going on with all the civil workers, so there were no classes going on for this week. We get there…and there are 3 teachers running about 250 students. WTF. these kids are ridiculous. There are no teachers around. No one supervising them. And…they are sitting in their classrooms, reading, all dressed in their uniforms!!! You have no idea. This is a completely foreign concept to me. Dude, if there was a strike in the US and no teachers were around, we would be running away from school. Kids would be throwing stuff. Kids would be fighting with each other. Trash would be littered everywhere. It would be CHAOS and disastrous. But nope. Here in Botswana, they just sit in their classrooms. Read. Study. Chat. A few were outside playing soccer. Some were outside just sitting in the sun. others were just doing the computer homework in the computer lab (which btw…had even better computers and monitors than ING…wow, that is sad).

 I’m beginning to really see a sticking difference between Botswana and America and how children are raised. In America, it’s always about who’s kid is the best, which one is better, which one is smarter, which one is smarter, which one is bigger, and you can really see where our individualism stems from. It’s all about competition. In Botswana, they don’t care about that. They just help each other. The kids are hungry…they will cook themselves food, along with anyone else that wants some. They just work and coexist together without any resentment and smiles on their faces. They aren’t trying to beat each other down. I have only seen this kind of bonding at one other place…in Tijuana at the orphanage. I find it absolutely astounding. And it allows me to continue to believe that people are born innocent and good and believe in the cause that children are who I want to work with because their intentions are still true and pure enough.  It is all learned behavior…they weren’t born inclined to certain behaviors. And the sooner behaviors are taught in an individual…the sooner behavior changes can be seen and stick throughout the generations, and hence starts the cycle of change. Oh, here my idealism is coloring my naivety. But I’ll keep to it, until proven otherwise. Which I’m sure will be in less than a year. Lol.

Anyways, we gathered a following. So many “white” people in one group! I had about 3 people at a time running their hands through my hair…”Ah! So soft! So nice!” lol. They really love my hair here. It’s such an anomaly here. They always ask me what I put in my hair…and are surprised to learn that nothing goes in it. Haha. I can continue walking and they will continue petting it. Lol. Anyways…they do love asian hair. But it’s funny, cuz some of the trainees do the same. Haha. I think it’s just that everyone loves asian hair. And don’t get me wrong, I am very grateful for my hassle-free asian hair. It has made my bathing here, oh so much easier. Sorry, super tangent. We say goodbye and head to the primary school.

Oh shoot, another thing about this junior secondary school. It’s a boarding school. So many of the kids that are at this school are from the surrounding villages and towns and just live at this school. It’s not a private school by any means, it’s a government run school. So many of these kids, though they were dressed in uniform even though they probably didn’t have to, it may be because that is all they have at the school or even at all (which makes me feel bad about having trouble with only having 2 pieces of luggage). Just thought that was an interesting tidbit.

So, we go to the primary school. It is much smaller, because here…it’s is just Middlepits kids that go here. We check out the library that my volunteer had started. It was pretty cool. They had different types of books, from Dr. Suess to Babysitters Club. It was a good variety and the books were in decent shape! Yay! There was a class in the library, well, more like a PTA member standing there with a stick threatening the kids to be quiet and to read or they will get beaten (though it didn’t really seem to scare them too much…being that they continued to giggle and whisper). We leave because we don’t really want to disturb the kids anymore, and we go and see her HIV/AIDS flag project. This project is where she got kids to paint on a flag something about HIV/AIDS, or how it has affected them, or to write a message to someone that has passed from the disease. It was pretty cute. Some messages didn’t make sense. And some were pretty upfront. All in all, at least it got the kids thinking about the disease. So I thought it was a pretty cool project. I may steal/borrow it from her if it can be useful in my community.

We go back to the clinic. Here she opened the HIV counseling building for us to see. Here they have a lot of educational material on the disease and the medicine (ARVs) that people will need that are living or are affected by the disease. There was this really cool book which was basically a printout from a computer that put how HIV works into very very simple terms that help children understand the virus and what it does. They had characters like soldiers and bad guys, where the soldiers are our T-cells, and the bad guys…well, are obviously the virus. Simple. It then proceeds to explain why you need to take the medicine to KEEP you health, as opposed to GET you healthy. So the ARVs were described as protective gear, like a helmet and armor for the soldiers. Our volunteer said that it seemed to go over well with the children and the parents, which was very encouraging to hear.

It’s Friday and there is a strike. We go home. Make lunch (lentils and rice). Then attempt to watch Dexter, but end up napping for a couple of hours. I wake up…need to pee. Go to the pit latrine...which is like almost a block away and out of the compound of the volunteer’s place. Awesome.

And…I’m gonna go into the whole pit latrine experience. I know you’re super stoked to hear about this. Lol. So, being the spoiled American, I try as hard as I can to avoid using pit latrines. And this trip to Middlepits gave me my first pit latrine experience. Let me start with…it is WAY better than using a portapotty in US. You bring a roll of toilet paper with you, so everyone knows that you are going to the bathroom. When you get inside, basically, it is a concrete block, with a toilet seat (which I think is an added luxury from other pit latrines already). It is strategically placed over a LARGE hole in the ground. How large? I honestly have no idea. I just know that it at least takes over 2 years to fill the hole…with shit…literally. But if you are sharing this pit latrine with someone or just a few people, you can keep it clean. I can get into so much more detail about this subject…haha, but I’ll spare you. Lol.

Anyways….i pee. Haha. like that? Haha. I go back, they are still sleeping. I don’t want to be the creepy person watching them sleep, so I decide to go outside and go on a walk to follow the ominous clouds. I follow them down a dirt road (which most of Botswana is), then decide to turn towards the border (since the clouds were clearly moving too fast for me to follow). However, in between the two borders is a huge river valley, with of course…no river. I just keep walking. I want to walk into the valley, but figured since I had no cell phone service, it probably wouldn’t be the best idea since no one knows where the fuck I am. In the valley I see a maize field. Interesting, in no man’s land, there is a maize field. Who owns it?! Botswana or South Africa?! Haha. Apparently, it’s a Batswana’s family, and no one really cares about what is going on down there. I head back, they wake up to me opening the door.

We clean the kitchen. Then head out to the bar 5 minutes away that is BUMPIN. And when I mean BUMPIN…I mean, their music can be heard from about a quarter of a mile away. The funny thing is…there is no one there. They have a pool table and an outside patio. I order a Black Label, which is a South African beer. The bartender just stares at me, hesitantly.  I try to order it again. He asks me “are you sure?” and stares at me strangely…”ya…I’m sure.” He gives it to me. I ask my volunteer later what was with the strange exchange…and she says “oh…ya, it’s the cheap beer. And when a girl orders it…it normally means they are…well a bit trashy because it has a higher alcohol content.” Oh shut…whoops! Haha. shush to all you out there who I know is laughing….but hey! I just like that beer, nothing else to it. Haha. oh well. We chill and just chat it up. And watched the most awesome sunset, it had EVER color imaginable. The sunsets here are breath taking. They go on and on and come from all directions just from the reflections. I have seen some awesome sunsets. And this one is definitely up there. We head back to the volunteer’s house…we walk into the house….*drip drip drip* it starts raining. PERFECT timing. We make mac-n-cheese. Our volunteer invites a friend over from the clinic, and we devour our mac-n-cheese and Russian (which is a beef sausage that basically tastes like a pork sausage). It’s so good, the other trainee and I, are at the pot and serving spoon scraping the cheese with leftover macaroni. Wow, we are awesome. Lol.

It was a strange sensation, and I’ve felt it a few times here. It’s hard to watch something on TV and see home…all the time. I’ve watched The Hills, I’ve watched a few movies, we watched Valentine’s Day. 1) it’s hard to believe that I am watching my home city from Botswana. 2) it makes me miss home and everything I used to do there. It just reminded me of all the memories I have of LA and everything I used to do there. I saw Venice Beach. I saw downtown LA. I saw Hollywood. These were all things I used to do on a regular basis. And what makes it so much stranger now is that is so far away, when before it was my everyday life. It made me miss home a bit, but it also transported me out of where I was at that moment, so it a bittersweet feeling.

After the movie…bed time.


April 30, 2011
SATURDAY.
We get up at 8 AM. Pack. Clean up. Sit on the side of the road. We are trying to hitch a ride. People are either drunk. The police. Or just sticking around Middlepits. We’re hoping that we can use me as bait to snag a ride with the Chinese men, but they didn’t come around. I’m curious to see what I can do with my Chineseness (or more like my looking Chinese…lol). We end up hitching a ride with a family in the back of their open pickup truck. In America, I would normally have called this the perfect convertible day, but here in Botswana…it’s the perfect hitching a ride in the back of a pickup truck day. J The weather was amazing. Just the right amount of wind and the right temperature. I was in a tank top. And it was probably one of the best rides I have ever taken in my life. Life was going at the right pace right then and there. It gave me time to think. It gave me time to reflect. The sun was perfect. The wind was perfect. Fresh air. I am in Botswana in the back of a pickup truck that I had just hitched from. All I could think of was TIA (This is Africa), but very much in a GOOD way. J We ride for about an hour, then we get off in Tsabong.

We get there, and we decide to grab a chicken pie. So something interesting about here and their meat. The chicken pie was delicious. And it’s basically like a chicken pot pie. Unfortunately, there are many a times where you end up with inedible/unchewable pieces of chicken in your in pies or shredded chicken. The week earlier, I had gotten a chicken mayo sandwich, and spent half of my bites pulling out little crushed chicken bones. Well, this pie, was no different. I remember back in the US, I would just stop eating or just end up gagging from food like that. But here…well, haha, I guess I’ve just gotten used to it and pick it out, or just spat until the little piece comes out (I know, attractive, huh?), and continue eating. It’s funny how some food things just are ok now. like onions, green peppers, and small chucks of cooked tomatoes, and crushed bones in my meat. Haha…as I said before I left…if I’m starving, I’ll eat it. And so be it. That has happened. Though I may not enjoy what I’m eating. Lol.

We stop at the grocery stores and grab a few snacks for our bus ride for the next day, then head to the lodge that we are going to be staying at for the night. Our room has 2 full size beds…AND…a SHOWER!!! What what?! (lol…our how our standards have changed a little since we’ve started). We are so excited…a SHOWER!!! Lol. We are teeming with anticipation for our shower for the night. But we head out. Hitch a ride from some guys that our volunteer knows. Get dropped off. Head to another volunteer’s place. She lives in government housing, with a kitchen, running water, a bath with hot and cold water, 2 bedrooms, and a living room. Pretty sweet deal. Most government housing is the same. Not too shabby, hopefully that is something I can look forward to in the near future. And on her coffee table, what does she have?! Apple cinnamon muffins, crackers, and CHEESE SPREAD.  We pig out, and eat some chips and bean dip. Delicious (yes…all us trainees are obsessed with American food, or more like non-setswana food). We end up hanging out, and the other volunteer that I was mid-sentenced with the few days before joined us. We hop into the truck bed, and head out to the camel farm. No one is there. No worries, the volunteer from Werda doesn’t cease to amuse us. He is attempting to feed then camels with cut grass, then manages to herd them into a corner of the pen, the manages to get a hold of one by the reigns. We get to feed the camels and pet one all under the taming of ourselves. Lol. The man in charge of the camels arrive and we get to ride them. Sweet. I rode a camel around in 2 circles for 15 pula. Haha. we went on a hunt for the baby camel, so small and cute. Then ride back just to see an enormous rainbow. Beautiful. we make vegetarian tacos for dinner. Hang out some more and just talk. Eat a yummy chocolate cake. Then head back to the lodge. SHOWER TIME. OMG…SHOWER!!! J best shower EVER. Lol. Never knew I could be so happy with something so simple. My goal to learn to appreciate what I have is being duly tried right now, and it’s ringing very true. Lol. Congrats to me, I pat myself on my back. Lol. Nice and clean…and off to bed. EXHAUSTED.

May 1, 2011
SUNDAY.
We head out at 545 AM to catch the 6 AM bus. Of course, Africa time, means 645 AM. We get on the bus, only to be kicked off 5 minutes later. Haha. apparently, there really isn’t a concept of customer service here. The 6 AM bus didn’t come til 645 AM. The 7 AM bus was mad. They are 2 different bus companies. The 7 AM bus stops our bus, calls the police, and accuses the 6 AM of stealing all their customers. So we all get kicked off the buses to be redistributed. Haha. wtf is going on?! At this point, it’s just funny. We just sit and wait. Not much else we can do. We have a few laughs. And of course 10 minutes later, we just get right back on the bus we were originally on. Though, now we’re SUPER late, and since the other bus took the other half of their customers, our bus decides to circle around Tsabong 2 more times to see if there are any stranglers they can pick up. Haha. we don’t leave Tsabong til about 8 AM. Lol. Oh Africa time. 6 hours later, we “miss” our Kanye stop, and end up back in Gabs. Shucks. Well, we’re hungry, we go to game city to scour for food.  PIZZA!!! YUM. We conjure up a gathering. And manage to get a PC driver to drive us back to Kanye.

Finally get home. Ke lapile. I meet my host mom for the first time. She’s very nice and laughs a lot. They make dinner. We watch Jandi!!! Yay! I love Jandi! J BEDTIME. Shadowing is over. The next checkpoint…SITE ANNOUNCEMENT in 2 WEEKS!!! AH!!! J CAN’T WAIT…and I’m super nervous. Please don’t put me in Middlepits!

April 2, 2011
Back in Kanye and training. We process our shadowing in groups. Then we start gardening. We learn how to garden. Fun times. Then we find out we are losing one more from our group. L For personal reasons, she wants to go home. We’re gonna miss her! Now we’re down to 37. Dropping like flies. How many more? Who knows…I guess we’ll find out. Send me good wishes! Miss everyone!


Sunday, April 24, 2011

I made American food...yay!

April 21, 2011
Made dun dan again for me…and my sister. She said she liked it. I don’t know if she actually ate it…but she did say she liked it. People are really polite here. In class, they really like to emphasize this trait about the Batswana, and I’m beginning to catch on. Anyways, took the rest of my group through the shortcut…and we made in no time…15 minutes again, and that includes us walking with an 84 year-old trainee, a 60+ year old sick trainee, and 2 other trainees. Got there right on time. School felt longer than usual today. Until the end. We jump roped, and played Botswana’s version of Chinese jump rope. We got a bit of a work out from all this. It was a cross-cultural experience where they were trying to teach us the games that they played while growing up. It was fun. We played a human version of tug-o-war…in other words…there is no rope…it’s you pulling on people. Lol. You form 2 teams. You hold onto the waist of the person in front of you. One team is pulling one way. Another team is pull another way. We collectively use all our strength to break the other team, and we get the player who gets pulled off the other team. Haha. it was funny. Many of us were getting pulled so hard, our feet were no longer on the ground. Lol. It gets to be vicious and dangerous because people are falling and stumbling all over each other. It’s pretty funny. We were hot and exhausted by the end of training today.

I walk home. I run into a group of girls a little younger than me. We strike up a conversation about where I’m staying, why I’m here, and for how long. Turns out one of them is a cousin to my host sisters. Cool. I get hollered at by a drunk man. How drunk men, that I don’t remember meeting, know my name is beyond me. The drunk guy is yelling “Gorata! Come here!” in Setswana. The girls tell me to say “I refuse!” in Setswana. Lol. Awesome…thanks, ladies! J I walk home, and there’s another girl in the living room. Ah! It’s the oldest host sister, the one that lives in Gabs! She’s come home for the weekend, her name is Ame. I think she’s a year or 2 younger than me. She’s working in IT as a programmer in Gabs. Lol. Omg, just brought back memories. Lol.

Anyways, Kese tells me I’m was gonna cook today, cuz I went shopping yesterday to cook for them. I decided, out of what I could find in the market yesterday, to make my casserole. Haha. but unfortunately, there weren’t enough potatoes and we were out of bread crumbs. IMPROVISE. Mashed up potatoes, cauliflower, and broccoli. Added butter, milk, black pepper, salt, and some dried Italian herbs. Then had my sister help me debone my chicken and just leave me the meat. We shred the nama ya koko (chicken meat) into the mixture. I create cream of chicken soup from a dried packet. Then instead of chicken stove top stuffing…and lack thereof bread, I get some chicken stock cubes with water to make chicken stock. Then add corn flakes. Then add pepper and the herbs. That is my makeshift stuffing. Somehow find a casserole dish. Put my mixture at the bottom. Add the soup on top of it. Then add the corn flakes. Bake it for 20 minutes. And I devoured it. As for everyone else…haha, well not so much. They took a bite and realized they didn’t like it. Haha. WELCOME TO MY WORLD…for the past 2 weeks (wow…it’s now at 2 weeks…crazy)!!! Yay! More for me. I have leftovers for lunch tomorrow. I am happy. And I got greens. Though I did get one fan…I guess the dad really liked it! Haha. I’m full. I feel healthier. I tried. Can’t do much better than that at this moment. Lol. This was probably one of the most improvised meals I have ever made. And to be honest, it wasn’t half bad (by my standards)! J Ah just another day of cultural exchanges here in Botswana!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

food...and...food...and...FOOD...and community integration. :P

April 18, 2011
Went into Gaborone (Gabs) today. We were supposed to get our banking done, as well as our immigration papers taken care of. Unfortunately, the civil workers were on strike today. And when we got to immigration…the system was conveniently down. We were only able to get our banking papers done. But immigration will need to be followed up on a later date. Don’t worry…the day was nowhere near a waste.

WE ATE PIZZA. OMG…you have NO IDEA how happy that made many of us. The staff let us wander to the mall nearby, which had all sorts of fast food, but most importantly… PIZZA. It was buy one get one free. I honestly thought I was in heaven. I got 2 pizzas and cheesy garlic bread. Then we got ice cream. We all had HUGE grins on our face. That was PERFECT. For the first time in 2 weeks, I finally felt full. Uncomfortably full. But full. And we had ALL missed that feeling. Something I am jealous for all of you still in the states…is that you can eat EVERYTHING and ANYTHING/make EVERYTHING and ANYTHING. We have to live off of what we have in the kitchen…and $4/day. So even if I wanted to go to the market to buy food to make, I can’t even afford it, let alone go out to eat (today was an exception…out of sanity sake).

An important thing to clarify. We are not hungry here because there is not enough food. Let me emphasize this. In fact, often, our families load our plates up so much that we can barely even finish half of our plates. It was just that we’re not used to the food and find it difficult to become accustomed to the new tastes. Many of us eat…to eat here, but not so much to taste anymore. So we don’t eat until we’re full, we eat until we feel like we’ve gotten enough nutrition out of the meal, since we’re not enjoying our meals as much. But for the most part, we end up hungry still or sooner than later because we haven’t eaten enough (out of choice). So today’s pizza meal, was our first satisfying full meal, and it was amazing.  I can say I am now a happy camper again.  J We can’t wait for our next immigration trip to Gabs (and boy, were we glad that the system was down)!


April 20, 2011
Sigh…oh 4/20. Happy 4/20 to all of you who enjoy this day! Anyways, today started out pretty good. I got a call from mom and dad. Then I got a call from mikey! Yay!!! J so good to hear from friendly voices. Thanks for calling! I made breakfast…and I made a CHINESE breakfast. We call it dun dan. Which means steamed egg is Chinese. So what it is…an egg, milk, and some sugar. Beat the mixture. Steam the egg in a cup, and there you have it…dun dan! What made this so special to me was that I just used what was in the kitchen and I was able to make a home comfort food. So that started my day out pretty good. J

I was running a bit late with everything that was going on this morning. So I told the others to head off to the kgotla before me, I didn’t want them to wait. I had been taken on a short cut a couple of times to the kgotla, so I decided to explore and take this route. I can’t emphasize how awesome it is. It’s awesome because, this is what the locals use and only locals know this…and I did this on my own after being shown it twice. You go through narrow dirt paths in between houses, turning right then left, then right…so on so forth. What would have normally taken me a 30 minute walk by paved road…got me there in 15 minutes. AND I beat everyone. And I finally feel like I’m getting a hang of living out here. I remember the first time I went on this shortcut, I thought to myself “wow…there is no way I could ever remember this, how do people remember these little paths?! I’m never gonna get used to this…” but I did it!!! J YAAAYYY!!! This is a big step at making myself feel more a part of my surroundings. Super proud of myself.

So did the whole class thing today. We had healthy outlets, which just means working out. Instead of basketball, they have net ball. Which basically means a metal pole with a circle on top. No backboard. No net. Just a hoop. It is incredibly frustrating and difficult to get the ball into the hoop. I played with a hula hoop (my friend has one) and a jump rope. Haha I haven’t done these things since elementary school, but fun nonetheless.

Then I had the Peace Corps driver drop me off at Choppies (more like I jumped out of the car and took off). I go shopping. No one bothers me. No one says anything to me. I don’t get strange stares. I’m actually grateful. I’m guessing, being that I was by myself…they probably just thought I was just one of the normal Chinese people that are around. I am totally ok with that right now, in a way it makes me feel like I blend in. I grab a few things, and I get to the checkout counter. “GORATA! O tlhoktse jang?!” wow…even the checkout lady knows who I am. I am surprised. Then, all the other check out ladies and bag ladies are saying “GORATA!” I have no idea how everyone knows who I am. I swear I had only told one of the checkout ladies what my name is…but I guess I’m a hard face to forget around here, the one asian normally with all the white people. I couldn’t help but laugh. Not gonna lie, I kinda liked it. This is interesting. I guess this is what Peace Corps calls community integration. Lol. I run into my LCFs at the market. They ask me “Who are you with?” haha…”whoops…ya…just me…” haha. They just smile. They’ve heard the stories. They tell me, we heard Gorata walks around by herself. Gorata knows her way around town. And now...everyone at Choppies knows her. I say go siame to everyone, and I climb into a combi and then walk home. J

Today was a good day. Today I proved to myself that I can live here. It gave me that confidence that I can be on my own. That I will be able to integrate into my community. That I can be a part of a community that knows who I am and will look out for me. That I can make friends out here. Today showed me tangible progress that I can do this.  Now I just need to be weary of the praying mantis that is flying around the house…I can’t kill it because apparently it means good luck for a praying mantis to enter your house in Botswana…go figure. *Ding* cultural difference. Lol. 

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

I made it through my first week of PST...WOO!

April 12, 2011
Someone please tell me a way to kindly deny eating pink squishy “meat”. It really doesn’t sit so well with me.  Sigh…I would love to cook for them. But I have no idea how to cook their food. Now…I just need to keep telling myself that deal with the 2 week intervals. In 2 weeks I go shadowing…where I follow around a volunteer. That’s in a 2 weeks. Then 2 and half weeks after that I visit my site (which I won’t know for another 4 weeks). Then 2 and half weeks after that…I begin my service. So we have 2 and half week intervals or checkmarks during training. Is it bad that I feel like I am already counting down the days for site?
Today was filled with many uncomfortable situations. 1) one of the trainees got attacked and bitten by 3 dogs. Not so great. A fellow trainee and I were the first ones on the scene. Her leg did not look very good.  2) we couldn’t figure out where our class was. 3) I was served pink squishy meat.  4) I was asked by someone to borrow 50 pula…and felt obliged to provide…even though I’m not supposed to 5) first pick-up encounter…where the guy wanted to follow me home, and couldn’t figure out a way to shake him…until I ran off into my compound.

All in all, today was not my favorite day. By the end of it, I was burned out and slightly cracking. And of course, my super friend to the rescue, Colin, always makes me feel better, even when I am 9 hours ahead, an ocean away, and 23 cents a minute to talk to. (where would I be without him?!)  I got really homesick today. I missed my friends. I missed my family. I missed my life at home. But, hey…I opted for this didn’t i? so I’m trying my best to stick with it. But I’m entitled every now and again to miss home and the people I love. So I’m not gonna feel bad about a little breakdown. It’s gonna happen…but as long as I don’t give up, it’s ok. I just pretended I was at home watching Mad Men (besides the constant spraying and inhalation of bug spray at every bug that comes in my room, cuz I’m paranoid as shit right now about getting bitten…either that shit is gonna destroy my lungs/brain cells, or I’m just gonna get high off it).

April 14, 2011
Ke lapile. I’m tired. I think I figured out why I feel like these 2 weeks have been sooooooo long. It’s my first whole week here in Kayne…and I feel like I’ve been here for months already. But I think I know what it is. I’m ALWAYS on here. Like ALWAYS. You know how normally 9 to 5…you put your work face on? Well here, it’s on ALL the time. I go to school at 730 AM, and from there I learn Setswana for 4 hours. Then I go and learn about the culture or HIV/AIDS. Then I come home at around 5 PM, and people are still always trying to talk to me in Setswana. Which is fine, which is great, because it helps me practice. But I get NO time off, and barely any time to myself. I’m busy making friends with everyone around me. I get soooooo tired of saying to hi to EVERYONE I pass. After a while, saying hi just gets tiring. Who knew, right?! But this is my life. This is what my life is gonna be like for the next 2 years. Well, at least once I get to my site, my home will be my space. So that will be my safe haven. But it’s kinda crazy to think this is gonna be my life for the next 2 years. I guess I’ll get used to it. Maybe I’m still in a bit of culture shock. Didn’t think I would be…but who did I think I was to begin with, thinking that I would be ok all the way through?!

Omg…today was all about FOOD. All day, all the trainees could talk about was FOOD. What we wanted to eat. What we wanted to cook. What we couldn’t wait to eat. What we missed eating. Omg…we just wanted to eat! I think the hardest thing for us to all get used to is the food. We basically eat the same things every day, with a ton of EXTRA salt and sugar to everything. We’ve been burnt out a bit on the food, but we eat it because we don’t want to be rude, or because we need to eat something. Many of us used to eat for taste, not so much cuz we just needed to eat something. So maybe we just aren’t used to not eating for taste. So this is something we’re definitely going to need to adjust to. Or just be ok with for 2 months. Then once we reach our site…hopefully we’ll have WAY MORE control over our food situation.

Side note, do I laugh a lot?! Cuz people here seem to think that I laugh a lot. And they make it a point to comment on it. I ask them “is that a bad thing?!” and they say “no…you just laugh a lot!” i guess I laugh so much, that a local asked me what was wrong with me and if I was high! WHAT?! UH….no! unless maybe off the bug spray…but nothing else! Lol. Jeez people. At least they find it amusing…or I can be more positive…find it enduring? Lol. My sister is funny. We were walking home from the store…and it was dark out. I was like “I can’t see!” and she’s like “Ah…Rati! OPEN YOUR EYES….like this, Rati! OPEN YOUR EYES like this!” and her eyes go super big and I can see the whites of her eyes go as big as my normal eye. I keep having to remind her that I’m asian and my eyes are just made squinty and I can’t open them any wider! lol. We have a good time. We basically walk home just making fun of each other. Glad to see Batswana have the same sense of humor. YAY! J

April 15, 2011
OMFG…WTF is going on?! Lol. Today was a tremendous day. I don’t exactly know how today happened…but it was a whirlwind…and I’m in fucking AFRICA. It’s funny where that statement actually hits us trainees. Today…classes were ridiculously long. Too much to learn…so little time. But we’re getting there.
 Then…we were hit with the saddest news. One of our trainees has to leave due to personal family health issues. It was incredibly heartbreaking and it made me shut up about all my complaining. We were all devastated at the news of him leaving. Many of us (girls) were crying. Of all people, he deserved to be here most. I have never done a prayer before. But I joined into a prayer circle, and I have never been so moved and so proud to be a part of a prayer circle to wish him the best and to be brave. Best of luck to him, and I hope that in the end he gets everything he hopes and strives for in life. We love you and will miss you. You will never be far from our thoughts. And we hope you come back to us! *HUGS* L

Many of us being so sad and shocked by this news, we were in no mood but to unwind. We end up at the nearest watering hole, called the Motse Lodge. And we all are in desperate need for a drink to ease the shock of everything that we have gone through in the last week. And that is what we did…drink. Cheers to our lost comrade. Cheers to surviving our first week of home stay. Cheers to US for just being here. We had some good talks and really delved into everyone’s personalities. We had all sorts of talks that of course led to inappropriate TMI, but at this point, we figured, it’ll be all thrown out there. Glad to see we are all incredibly honest! Apparently, I’m badass. Then incredibly girly. Lol. I think I’m ok with that assessment about me. It started pouring. I ran out into the rain and did a pula dance. I love dancing in the rain. And fuck that…I had rain boots on…so why not?! 2 hours later, we are in a happy, toasty, friendly mood. We have already designated big houses and small houses between the trainees. Lol. We have an awesome group. Since the van can’t hold all 20 of us that went…half of us decide to trek it home. We walk up a hill, and 20 minutes into the walk…AFRICAN RAIN. And when I mean AFRICAN RAIN, I mean DOWNPOUR like I have never seen. THIS IS AFRICA….TIA. I am wearing rain boots, hiking up a hill, getting soaked to the core. I have never been so happy/excited about having a pair of shoes. Rain is coming in ALL directions. SPECTACULAR. All I could do was laugh at this point. I AM IN AFRICA…I AM IN BOTSWANA. I will never have an experience like this again later in life. As awful as that experience of walking home in the rain could have been, it was amazing, because for once…I am finally LIVING life. No more waiting…life is happening. *cheers to living life* (and by the time I got home…I didn’t care about what I was eating!)

April 16, 2011
WOW…day 2 of just CRAZY rain and crazy emotions.
Went to class this morning. Had a counseling session about having one of us leaving. It made us all very somber and really think about everything, like why we’re here, why we’re doing this, everything we’ve left behind, and how uncontrollable everything will be for us at home. Many of us left with tears in our eyes, and once again desperate for a drink. Though we all are trying to be strong, and ignoring a lot of the fears we are feeling about the decision we have made to serve as volunteers…we all felt a lot of vulnerability with the situations we are in. But at the end of the day, we are here for a reason, and we are here because this is what we want to be doing. And as much as this is about trying to make the world a little bit better of a place, we’re also very much here for us, and the dreams and goals we have for ourselves. And the way we’re gonna make it through this is to be strong and to stick together and be there for each other. And with that in mind, collectively we were a lot stronger.

We went to the lodge again after class to just unwind and to celebrate a few birthdays. More TMI conversations came up and we got to know even more about each other. With so much uncertainty in the air about where we’re all gonna end up for the next 2 years, it was good to hear from other trainees about their anxieties, and that we are all in the same boat. I ate a steak and cheese sandwich with fries and a salad. OMG, best meal I’ve had since I’ve gotten here.

A trainee that lives near me and I decide to try to walk home again before the storm hits…NOPE, once again, caught right in the MIDDLE of the storm. We hear thunder, we see lightening in the distance. And this time…it’s not just rain….there’s HAIL. FML. A car passes us they slow down…they continue on. Sigh. 2 minutes later, the car backs up. Stops. Ushers us to get in. It’s a nice middle generation couple…like our parents! Omg…I have never been so grateful for a ride. We jump right in. They are as sweet as they can be. They drive in the pouring/hailing condensation up the hill (that woulda probably taken us another 30 minutes to walk up in the storm…the whole ride up…all we can say is OMG…OMG…OMG…) and drop us off at the other trainee’s house. We thank them a thousand times over for picking us up and helping us out. I sprint as fast as I can back to my house…this time taking the windy short cut path back through the bushes, since I figured no one would be out in ridiculous storm just waiting to jump someone. The path is running like a river. ONCE AGAIN, I LOVE my rain boots. This is EXACTLY what I bought them for. I woulda been cursing the world over if I had been wearing my chucks. I open the door to the kitchen and my host dad and his friend look at me shocked as to how drenched I am. I stand there like WTF just happened…AGAIN. I immediately take off my dripping jacket and rain boots and hang it on the broom cuz I don’t want to get the rest of the house wet. Thank god I was wearing my rain coat today…otherwise it woulda been a wet t-shirt contest for me…and I definitely woulda won. THAT IS A FUCKING STORM. RIDICULOUS.

I’m sitting in my room. I feel like the roof is gonna just cave in under the pressure of the rain and hail that is storming above me right now. I have never heard or seen such a fierce rain storm. It doesn’t help that it is pounding on a tin roof, which just accentuates the sound of the storm. And I’m sitting in the dark because the electricity is out. 

April 18, 2011
I am going to go over more of what my home life/botswana culture is like. Like the cultural differences and similarities. But I gotta sit down and put all my thoughts together. So just you wait...I will post more later this week! and maybe...if your lucky...(and i get more comments :P) i'll have pictures! miss you guys! 

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

My first days at home stay...ups and downs...this one is a long one!

April 7,2011
Today was incredibly overwhelming. It was the first time since I’ve gotten here where I had to ask myself if I could do this. Getting matched with a family and living with them is crazy harder than I thought it would be. Trying to follow what is going on in my family’s life, may it be the big picture or the topic of conversation they are currently having, is really difficult and tiring. I never realized how hard it is to be in an environment where I don’t know what people are saying.
We made it out to Kayne. We were ALL so nervous in the morning. We were crazy with anticipation about how our host family was going to be and what amenities we were gonna have.
 At 11 AM we were given our host families. We were matched and when they called our name, the family member would come up and give their trainee’s a hug, and some were even picked up. Haha, it was funny watching some people getting picked up. I got matched with Rra Sebeelo which basically means Sir/Mister Sebeelo. He was very nice and laughed when we were matched. He gave me a hug and held my hand down the aisle (which all host parents did to their new “children”).  We talked for a bit, it was awkward, but it’s more cuz of the language barrier and understanding each other. I find out he has 5 kids with his wife.  
At lunch we all had lunches with our new host parent. Everyone was given a Setswana name. Rra named me Gorata (Hor-rat-a), which means “to be loved.” The funny thing about this is Amanda means the same, but he didn’t know that. Does that really mean I’m meant to be loved?! Lol. Jk.
 We drove back to his home and his 19 year old daughter greeted me. Her name is Lebo. She was very nice, and explained to me the rules of the house in English (she speaks super good English and understands everything that I am saying…so that’s awesome). They have electricity and running water and a toilet. YAY! J got the basic amenities that I was looking for. Though they don’t have hot water, so I have to take bucket baths. AH! Something new and something I was anticipating. Later my other host sister, she is 16 years old, came home from school. Her name is Kese.
We cook food cuz Rra was hungry, and I learned to make cole slaw. I told them I didn’t know how to cook and they were shocked. Haha. they expect me to cook for them, and I would totally be cool with that, if it was food that I know/can/am used to cooking. I am none of those, so I’m super nervous about doing it. I don’t know how to cook food with bones still in them. And all their food still has all the bones and fat still on it, which is starting to make me consider being a vegetarian for the next 2 months. AH! Anyways, Lebo cooked the chicken. We ate. I did the dishes. This is how they do the dishes. They plug the sink. Add water. Add powder soap into the sink. Then scrub all the plates, bowls, pots, utensils, all in the sink. Strangely, as I continued washing the dishes, they seemed to get less and less clean…if you catch my drift….
Lebo and I decide to go for a walk, cuz she needed to buy airtime for her cell phone. We walk to the general store, where I manage to get caught in a prickly plant, that decides to leave their pricklies in my shirt. So I spend the rest of the walk trying to get all the pricklies out of my shirt. I get there and there are a few girls as the general store around my age or younger.  My host sister introduces me to them and they get a kick out of my very limited/shy Setswana. They ask me how my hair is the way it is, and what I put in it to make it so straight and soft. Haha. I let them touch it, and they LOVE it. One started to braid my hair. They were fun. They joked around with me and asked me about where I was from and if I had a husband/boyfriend. They also asked me if the rest of the volunteers were asian like me, and I told them that I was the ONLY one of the group. Haha. When I left with my host sister from the general store, the girls told me to come back and hang out, and that they were my new friends. YAY! I apparently made new Batswana friends today! J I have started the integration process! WEEE!!!! J
The rest of the night was spent sitting around awkwardly because the TV was broken. My sisters taught me a few new words like “one” is “bongwe”. We chase a cow out of the yard. I show them pictures of LA. I am exhausted by 930. Tell them good night. Write in my journal. Then pass out instantly.
All in all, it was a very long day. And just incredibly overwhelming. Just trying to integrate into someone’s family is a lot harder than I ever thought it would be. They talk about me, but I don’t know what they are saying and it’s hard to decipher. But they are a cool family and I can see us having a lot of fun. I just wish I could understand them NOW. Lol. Something to learn…patience is a virtue….hopefully. 

April 8, 2011
I woke up today with 15 mosquito bites. Awesome. I am itchy all over. And took my first bucket bath. Haha. This consists of me heating up water over the stove in a designated pot for boiling bath water. Pour the hot water into my bucket. Add cold water to the boiling water in my bucket so it is just warm water. Crouch in the bath tub. Use my hands to form a cup and splash water on myself. Put shampoo/conditioner in my hair. Put soap on my body. Then once again use my hands to form a cup to wash the soap off. After a while, it wasn’t coming off, so I started just dumping a little bit of the water from the bucket on me. I’ll just say…I am so glad I cut my hair! Though I did feel cleaner, so it worked! YAY!! My first bucket bath completed! J don’t necessarily enjoy it, but it will do, and I will get clean. The end.
I make tea and eat a piece of bread, and my host sister Lebo walked me to the bus stop where the PC was going to pick us up to show us how to get to our training site. I get there and people start trickling in. We all look ragged and confused, and definitely overwhelmed. I am so glad that it wasn’t just me. We were all basically on the same page with how confused and tired we all were. They had tried to prepare us for what was to come for home stay, but it was STILL overwhelming once we got there. We all traded notes on what we each had. Some only had pit latrines and no running water. So I guess I got a pretty good deal.
My mosquito bites are starting to blister (though this isn’t unusual, since this has happened to me before...but this time I have 15 bites all doing this). I am uncomfortable. And my yellow fever shot I got a week ago is still very much swollen and radiating heat. I decide to go see the doctor…which is all the way back in Gabs (a 45 min drive). There are 4 of us that pile into a car to go back to the clinic. He gives me antibiotics for the shot, and some cream for my bites. Glad I went! We go to another clinic so another volunteer can go get lab tests. Which gave the other 3 of us time to wander around a bit. We go to Choppies (a grocery store chain), and I buy my first Botswana objects, lemon and custard crème cookies, pistachio nuts, and a bottle of water. Yay! We then drive around the city looking for a US to Botswana adaptor for my computer. We went to 4 different stores and finally found one. We walk through a huge mall that makes me feel like I’m back in the US. I saw my first OTHER asian. It was a fun site to see. Haha. glad to see they exist elsewhere! Yay! Anyways…finally get an adapter, and we drive back to Kanye.
I get back…and YAY…the TV is back. We watch Oprah…in Yosemite. Lol. Awesome. Then dinner. Then we dance around in the living room for a bit. My host sisters tried to teach me how to dance. OH!!! Another awesome thing about Botswana is that they love house music. And they have some pretty sweet beats. I’m loving it more and more. I do love house music. I’m gonna come back a total house head. Erika and Joe G, you’d be so proud! And you’d LOVE all the music here. Anyways, my host sisters love house too. So they were teaching me Botswana house moves. I, of course, have no rhythm, so they laugh which is fine, cuz I’m sure I am a pretty funny sight to see. We go outside and dance some more with the neighbors. We watched their favorite soap opera, called Generations. I am once again exhausted. And here I am typing away.  But I am going to bed now, cuz my eyes are tired. Night night!

April 10, 2011
Jesus, this has probably been the longest week of my life. Seriously…it feels like I’ve been here for like months already. Unfortunately, I’m not sure that’s a good thing. It’s been a CRAZY week. And I’m still wondering what I got myself into. But as I said before…I’m attributing it to being overwhelmed right now. It’s strange being a world where a majority of the time I have no idea what is going on and what is being said. In fact, I’m getting pretty used to it. People just talk in Setswana, and I kind of just space out until I hear my name “Gorata” or “Rati” then I’ll just look and reply with “eh?!” and a confused look cuz of course I have NO IDEA about what people are saying. They usually just laugh, then sometimes, if they feel like it they will ask me again in English. If not, they continue their conversation, and I go back to spacing out. And the cycle begins again. This happens when I’m doing the dishes, this happens when I’m doing my laundry, this happens when we’re watching tv, this happens when we’re walking somewhere. I know I will never be fluent, but I will truly be amazed if I will ever be able to catch onto a whole conversation. One of the volunteers (that actually JUST completed his service the day we met him) said that Setswana is an impossible language. They talk SUPER fast…or so it seems as of right now. It’s been a little rougher than I thought to getting used to my environment. Hopefully, I will get there sooner than later. But don’t get me wrong, I’m not having a terrible time! People here have been incredibly accommodating and very patient with me. They are super friendly too. I think it’s just difficult not being able to understand. But, my neighbors have been inviting me out with them. They’ve come over to ask me questions about their school work. They’ve had a dance party with me. And this is all within a span of 3 days. Not too shabby. I’m having a great time, I’m in a pretty good situation! I just hope the rest of my 26 months doesn’t feel like it drags on as long as this past week has…
Anyways, let’s start with my day, and I will go into tangents with my thoughts to commentate on the situation.  I woke up, ate corn flakes (probably the most American thing I’ve eaten since I’ve gotten to Kayne). Then did all the dishes, and cleaned and swept the kitchen (yes…I am slowly being domesticated).  Then came the big task of the day….LAUNDRY.  First, you fill a bucket with water. Then you fill a second bucket with water. Then you add powder soap the first bucket. You start with your light colors first, and that doesn’t include socks. You scrub and scrub and scrub, basically with your knuckles and on your wrist. You gotta put a lot of umph into it. Then you do the dark colors and socks. This is when I started to get a little annoyed with doing my laundry. Turns out my sisters are sticklers for being super clean with their clothes. My socks…well, they may be a bit brown on the bottom. But hey! When you put em in the washing machine, many a times, they still come out slightly brown on the bottom! And they’ve been like that since I’ve gotten my socks! Anyways…so they expect me to scrub my sock until they are white, with no brown. That’s impossible!!! I swear. Dude, they came in my luggage tinted brown to begin with. Now you want me to scrub out dirt that ALREADY existed before I got here?! You gotta be kidding me! But…no they weren’t kidding! They wouldn’t let me throw my socks into the other tub until they were white. Omg…someone please send me black socks, so they can’t see the dirt that’s still on it when I wash them! I swear…I think I spent 15 minutes on ONE sock. I am going to hide my socks from them when I wash them. JEEZ. Lol. Anyways…after you scrub your clothes well enough (or to your standard or whoever’s standard is watching you wash your clothes) you throw it into the other tub with just water to basically rinse out the suds. Then you hang them up on the line. Shirts hang upside down. Shorts hang right side up. Pants hang upside down. OMG…about 2 hours later…and rubbing burns on my knuckles…I was done. I think I’m just gonna start wearing the same thing ALL week so I don’t have to wash it. Haha. I’m really beginning to realize how lazy I am. I don’t want to wear clothes, because I don’t want to wash em. I don’t want to eat sometime (like sweet reed) because it takes too much effort to eat it. I want to buy black socks, because I don’t want to scrub the noticeable dirt out of my white socks. Is this laziness a product of being an American? Or is that just my personality? I haven’t quite figured out how to categorize it yet. I’m sure as time progresses I’ll get a better idea of where to be placing this trait in my mind.  Though, right before I left…my mother was crying at the airport about how I am lazy…so maybe it really is just a personality thing. Lol. Oh well…
Anyways…YAY! My first hand washing laundry experience was completed! Time for my bucket bath. I took a cold one. I didn’t even care at that point. And it was pretty warm out, so it was kind of refreshing. This time…instead of cupping my hands to get water, I took a spare water bottle that I have, and used that to pour the water on me. OMG…so much easier! WAY more control over the water. Anyways…nice and clean! My sister takes a bath. And off we go to meet up the other trainees…just to get together. My sister and I walk for like 40 minutes, and finally after twists and turns through little paths weaving in and out of roads and houses, we finally find 4 other trainees.
Something I really want to add about this “walk” or just “walking” in general here in Kayne and I’m assuming for the rest of Botswana besides the big cities. What we call “walking” here in Kayne, is what we would call “hiking” back in the states. Lol. We walk on dirt paths, weave in and out of bushes and grass paths that were created by people who have been walking. There are rocks that you may need to climb over. We go in between houses. We are constantly surrounded by chickens, roosters, donkeys, cows, dogs, goats. We go up hills. We go down hills. And like 90% is all on dirt roads. So, mom and dad, YES I am “hiking” in LA terms…in my chucks. To add to it, you would be surprised as to what would be called a road…and what a car can actually drive through. Their “driving” here, would be OFF ROADING in the states. I have no idea how some cars can fit on some of the roads that they have here. They have some magical tires. My tires on my old car would have died about 50 meters onto one of these roads here. Lol. As I said earlier…my tangent!
Ok, so we meet up 4 other trainees and a trainee’s host brother. The 6 of us walk towards downtown to meet up another group. Once again, zig zagging through houses, grass, etc, we finally make it downtown about 30 min later again. At this point, I’ve basically be walking for about an hour and half…and I have NO idea how I got anywhere. We meet up the other group at Choppies in the town. I grab a bottle of water…omg…delicious cold bottle of water. I was a happy camper again! There are about 12 of us at this point. I show them were the internet café is. We just sit and talk outside of it for about 30 minutes. It was good to see everyone. It seemed like FOREVER since I had seen them…even though it had only been 2 days.
We part…being that everyone else and their moms live in the same area, except for me.  We take a combi home. I guess I was more tired than I thought I was…because my other host sister found me passed out on the couch about 30 minutes later. She has cooked dinner…I think it’s about 5 PM by this time. I eat some of it, then we decide to go to the stream/gorge since the neighbors have been wanting to take me this whole weekend. The four of us begin our journey, and later Lebo joins us. We walk for about 25 minutes, once again, zig zagging through I don’t even know where. We finally end up at a stream or gorge. I run into 2 other trainees with their families there. My sisters, me, and my neighbors decide to start climbing all over the rocks. We take a ton of pics. It was beautiful. Green everywhere. Trees everywhere. Bushes. Rocks. Boulders. Sunset. All awesome! Good times. J We walk back the same once…once again, I have NO idea where I am…and to add to it…go lefifi…it’s dark! There aren’t lights, so not only do I have no idea where I am, I can’t see shit (literally and figuratively). Lol. AWESOME. I put all my faith in these people to get me home. And of course they do, and my shoes are shit free. Yay! Success!
I check on my clothes. Half of it is dry. My jeans, sweats, and some socks are still wet. So I guess they’re staying up for the night. Dang it, that means I got no PJs for the night, and leaves my legs as munching grounds for bugs. Otherwise, my clean dry clothes are good to go…and they I guess, smell, like…African air? Haha…I guess I’m just used to my clothes smelling like Bounce or something. So when I smelled my clean clothes…they didn’t exactly smell like how I remember them to smell…Lol. But i do know my clothes are clean. YAY! Success. My family finds it so funny that I don’t know how to do these basic things. And when you really think about it…it is pretty funny. But what can I say?! I’m a spoiled American! Hey, give me some credit, I’m toughing it out now! I’m seriously trying! J Anyways, I think I’m gonna end my night with a Korean soap opera, Jandi. I think I walked like 8 miles today…in the hot African sun. I’m tired. And I got a sun burn with an awesome tank top/backpack tan line. SEXY. Robala sentle! Sleep well!

April 11, 2011
First day back in class…so it seems. It was a REALLY long weekend. I have no idea why it felt so long…but it really was. Anyways, back in class again, I spent most of it just thinking about how itchy my bug bites are…which reminds me…I need to put my cream on.  Ok…much better, except now I just feel like a grease monkey…like seriously a greasy monkey from the 10 bites I have. Anywho, spent the morning catching up with everyone’s weekend then doing some “Why we are here” exercises. Then they gave us our walk around allowance (yay! Money!) and 4 books about Setswana and the Batswana culture. Then after lunch we were off to meet the kgosi!
Kgosi means chief in Setswana. Each area has a kgosi. He basically overlooks disputes in his area. They basically cover the title of sheriff, judge, and leader, all rolled into one. It was a formal ceremony, we had all dressed up to meet him. Did the proper handshake, where you hold your right elbow and shake his hand. Then you say, “Dumela, rra” or “Dumela, kgosi” and we sit. We ask him questions about how things are run, and what his role is in the community. Then in turn everyone else (including the VDC – village development committee) gets to ask us questions about why we are here and about the US. Many questions we didn’t have an answer for. Like what is the crime rate in the US? We had no idea…we just said it depended on where you lived. Or what is the HIV/AIDS rate in the US? WOW…now that one we should have known….we had no idea also. I braved the question to ask the kgosi about HIV/AIDS (they are normally very private about these topics here) and he just said that it is very secretive here and that no one talks to him about it. Interesting…I’m hoping later, with whichever village I end up in, I will be able to talk to the kgosi openly about programs I would like his/her support in for HIV/AIDS. Oh! And on a side note…the kgosi’s dad…fricking awesome! He was wearing a tie and vest…some chucks….and fedora…and he was 90. He looked like an old Cuban man that should be in a rocking chair smoking a cigar. So wish I took a pic of it. He was straight up BALLER. Lol.
After meeting the kgosi, we went home. I cooked dinner, but really couldn’t eat it anymore, so I just told them to eat without. I gathered up 2 more trainees, and headed back into town. They wanted to see how to get there and where the supermarket and internet café was. So we started hiking down, then…ok parents and people of the US…don’t freak out…we HITCHED a ride down the rest of the way. A guy pulled up and asked if we wanted a ride to where we were going. I figured, there were 3 of us…one being 60+ years of age, it was probably harmless, and it is a mode of transportation out here… Turns out he was in the police force. YAY! Now we didn’t feel so worried about. He dropped us off at Choppies. YAY!! My first hitched ride, and no glitches! SWEET.
Since we got paid today…we decided to splurge a little. I bought CHEESE. Omg…I was sooooo excited to make a grilled cheese sandwich (which was DELICIOUS and exactly what I needed!). Showed them where the internet café was. Then took a combi home. And did I forget to add….we did this all on our OWN. No other Batswana with us. I was so proud of us! J I’m starting to really get comfortable with the environment. YAY!!! That’s about it for today. I watched my first episode of Mad Men, now I’m going to read a little then go to bed. But hey, I’m getting there…I’ll be ok. J