omg...i'm freaking out, man. the shnoze berries, taste like shnoze berries!...and serisously...i have been freaking out like a lost little child on their first day of school.
it's 2 nights and 1 day before i start this whole thing...and i honestly have no idea what i'm getting myself into. it's been a crazy 2 weeks of just getting everything together. making sure i have everything i need (hiking backpack, water filter, sleeping bag, dry shampoo, first aid kit, swiss army knife, etc...). making sure all my finances are in order. i feel like i've been a bit of a headless chicken, just running around in circles. but i guess it's all coming together. i wish i could have written more, but i honestly have been swamped with the last details of my home days.
i've been freaking out for the past 2 weeks. i definitely think i may have developed a slight case of bipolarism just from these 2 weeks. from being super sad about leaving everything that i love here, to being super excited about this new adventure. as time comes closer for me to leave...not gonna lie, it gets harder and harder as the day approaches. don't get me wrong, i am definitely not second guessing my decision to go...but it's one of those things where you don't realize what you have until you've lost it. and being that in a way i am about to "lose" everything and everyone that i've had in my life, it makes it just that much harder to say goodbye to it all. i love all my friends and family. and i finally realize everything that i have here that is so amazing. unfortunately, it's a realization that came a little too late. but at the end of the day, i have a pretty sweet deal. awesome people here and an awesome new adventure to come. we've had an awesome 2 weekends. from my best friends from college in vegas, to my coworkers and happy hour, to all my friends in LA, and finally to my family. we all celebrated with the mixed message of "don't go! we're gonna miss you!" but "you have to go! we're so excited for you." makes me love everyone that much more. :)
one more note to all, i am normally not very good at keeping up with technology (haha...that definitely is NOT news to many), but i am also not very good at keeping up in communicating via technology. so this is one more thing i plan on working on while i am away...learning to stay in touch...VIRTUALLY.
ok...gotta get back to the whole packing thing. sigh...i know i'm gonna forget something...and hopefully it's not my mind...wish me luck! :)
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